Physical Therapy and Cupping
Hello friends, as you know if you follow me on Facebook you know I've been going to physical therapy three times a week. This has not been easy. I have scoliosis as well as diagnosed once again and confirmed Sjogrens Syndrome, Raynauds Phenomenon, and Fibromyalgia.
Which means my muscles spasm, turn into knots in my body. My physical therapist Jonathan said to me one day, "I have never, in my 24 years of practice, seen a back this bad. How did it get this bad?"
This has led to some great questions. How do we get so bad sometimes? I'm listening to NF Hope right now as I write this and listening to the breakdowns the internet thinks about this song as it gives me hope to give away baggage to let things go. When I committed to 4-6 weeks of getting my health in order, I committed to 3x per week physical therapy, 2x per week psychology appointments, neurology, dermatology, opthamology, rheumatology, and psychiatry.
Alot. A lot alot alot. A lot of darkness has followed since I committed to this, but a lot of light and healing. If you follow my music journey and see the progress, downfalls, and all the other emotions I portray throughout my career, you can see I release songs every Thursday on all platforms but also have a series called You Are Loved that's currently in Season 3. Season 4 is on the way, but what I have noticed as I have stepped back and taken some time to truly heal and see where my priorities lie. Now, I don't have kids but since 2018 I realized I wanted children which is a big feat in my life, carrying around that idea that everything needed to be perfect before I have children has been a really big weight to carry around.
Now, as I'm listening to so many artists around me including MGK and NF, I look at Black Bear and his impact and footprint and the way these artists look at their lives and their artistry and find a sincere sense of hope in my life. Now, I balance between masculine and feminine energy and those who have followed my journey since 2013, have seen a lot of the highs and lows in my life. Including deleting myself off the internet in 2019 and again in 2020 due to some mental health and low self esteem issues. Something I've learned through this season of You Are Loved, as well as learning to trust those around me, through doctors appointments and finding the right team, is that trust is something I always had in myself. Now, as I venture into this next chapter and version of myself I realize, I always had good habits instilled in me. To take care of my health, my body, my mind, and my artistry from a very young age. I was a radio host at 14, then always pursuing modeling, video production, music, writing, film, and other creative endeavours in business. Business has always been a large part of who I am, as I grew up in an entrepreneurial household and was taught to be 15 minutes early, treat people with respect, and your reputation is the biggest thing that matters in business. Something I still respect, and look to become the best of the best.
Now, you may know I was diagnosed with bipolar in November of 2022. Which flipped and rocked my whole world and created this whole world of healing that was really necessary. I started having these dreams recently as my body is detoxing, healing, and recovering from years of neglect. I focused so much on my career that I neglected my physical health and couldn't keep up. Locking up those toxins in my muscles and mind, and now it hits. It all comes crashing in my face at the same time taking me out for about two weeks. Now, I'm lucky I'm building a team of badass female and male colleagues to help take the pressure and stress off of me. But physical therapy has opened my eyes to the importance of taking care of not only your physical health, but the trauma and toxins that can lock up into your muscles causing degenerative diseases. Now, back to the cupping and dreams I've been having.
Cupping started I believe the first week of physical therapy and unfortunately I have been recovering so hard, that I have not been able to get many pictures of videos of the whole process. I will do my best to create a whole blog post about cupping in the near future, but essentially it's where the doctor places cups on parts of your body to release and relieve the tension in the muscles and pull the blood flow up, leaving these circle bruises on your body where the blood flow was pulled. It's a weird sensation, but doesn't really hurt when getting cupping. And I can say, after they do this three times per week, my spine is not only straightening out (intense massage and chiropractic is also involved in my physical therapy) but my pain level, inflammation, and mobility is starting to return.
I ended up with three infections during the past two weeks, which wiped me out as well. But with the help of ER, Urgent Care, and a great doctor who recommended 5,000 IU's of Vitamin D daily, or 10,000 IU's which has significantly helped my anxiety and mood. Here's a link to some great liquid Vitamin D to take.
I am Vitamin D deficient, as is most of my family, and in the winter time, we all tend to need more Vitamin D. I also started to take daily children's vitamins with probiotics, due to the medication, antibiotics, and steroids for the infections I had this past few weeks. Now, to get myself back up to speed and starting to feel normal again, I have been taking a good amount of Vitamin D and making sure I eat a balanced diet. I have a tendency to love carbs, which is the building block for the recommended food pyramid, and I've been eating a lot of carbs recently.